Okay, I'm not generally one to give up. I never give up on things or people, specially when it comes to my body, meaning piercings, dying/cutting my hair, that kinda thing. I've gotten my ears gauged so many times they were 2s, my goal is a 0 because I really like an earring called an 'eyelid', but I dont think it looks good unless it is that big. so I finally bought some, and I bought some others that I can actually gauge my ears with since it's like, impossible to gauge them with the eyelid. So I started gauging them, and it was strangely harder than ever before. I continued trying thoough, of course, since when I did my lip ring, trying to get the lip ring in after getting the needle out, it took two hours to get it in. So I decided to continue trying and trying. I was getting good encouragemtent from my best friend Abbi over AIM, but she had to go, so I was talking to Tabby[neighbor], Charles[awesomestguyever], Jess[awesomestguyever'sgirlfriend], and my sister steph over AIM, using video. They helped a lot, but steph was being a bitch and kept telling me to stop, I was getting really pissed off. I finally stopped the video and they logged off of AIM so I dunno what they're doing now. But I tried so hard to get over the pain and just shove it through, but I knew I shouldnt push it too fast because I didn't want to risk having a blow out [which is wear you tear your lobes instead of stretching them], I even used Vaseline lotion, it helped somewhat, and I even used ICE! Ice didnt work very well though, so whatever. I finally pushed as hard as I could and got it over the little corner that I couldnt get it over! [pics coming to explain more] It hurt SO MUCH. I was writhing back and forth in pain holding my ear..
I was too distracted with the pain to put on the backing, and it slipped back off..
I tried a few more times, but it was hurting too much now, I couldn't do it. Even after I told myslf not to give up, I never giv eup, but I did.. I finally slowly pulled it out and gave everyone what they wanted. No encouragement really has an affect when you're doing something like this all alone, maybe if I was still talking to Abbi or Tabby and Jess, then maybe I would have gotten it. But I didn't, I gave up. It was the first time I ever gave up on something like this and I'm really dissapointed and disgusted with myself right now, I'm so pissed off I just want to stab something. I put the earring in that I had before, which I think was a 4 or a 2. And I'm letting my ears rest. I think it was because I skipped one when I htought it was a 2 and it was actually a 4, so I think I'll just buy a 2 and see if I can gauge it that way first, because I really don't think I can do this..
Picture time!
Some of these pictures are graphic, so, be warned.
My full ear afterwards, it's so red.
I hate myself for this.
[this is the graphic picture]
This is how much blood was on the outside and back of my ear..
those blue ones there are the ones I used to pierce it with, the eyelids are the ones to the right. [if you can see them, which I doubt b'cause blogger is being retarted and decided to cut my pics in half. =/
I'm very dissapointed in myself. =/ I think I'ma go crawl under a rock now.
2 comments:
I feel like I should leave another comment. Did you ever end up working it out? For one thing, don't do something you can't handle, like modifying any part of yourself for the sole purpose of it looking pretty or trying to look cool to anyone else then you shouldn't do it. BUT if you're doing it for yourself and no one else thats O.K. These kind of things, are things you need to decide for yourself and alone. You shouldn't depend on your friends there encouraging you or even those telling you not to do it, because that will really bog you down, if you do it on your own, it's much easier. Okay I'm done lecturing on that part!
NOW, discussing the ear hole you have created! It look almost about like mine, so you probably are really either a 4 or a 6, mayyyybe just maybbe a 2. Skipping sizes is okay when you're at small sizes like 18-14-12-10-8, but any skipping sizes past that is a bit risky, apart from it hurting A LOT you'll also have unwanted scar tissue and ripping going on there. You may also not want to use a taper that is acrylic/plastic, because when you're stretching your ear, it's considered an open wound, you may not notice it if you're doing it correctly, but there are small rips in your skin, and dirt and bacteria can get into that, and plastic plugs and such have small small holes that can carry all those germs, and can lead to your ear getting infected.
Okay, now when you're stretching your piercing, be sure to have soaked your ear in warm water, or if you just took a warm shower start stretching now, to soften the skin, using ice is a big big no no! I used to think ice would help too, but it really doesn't; it makes it worse.
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