What wasn't enough

Alriight, well, I've never really written a poem before- well, I have, a short one, but it was one of those private pieces, your emotions kinda thing, but tonight while I was talking to Abbi, I got an idea for a good poem, partially inspired by the song "Hello" by Evanescence, as well as a few other things in my life, and she said she really really liked it, as well as some other friends of mine. I really didn't expect it to turn out as well as it did, but apparently everyone really likes it. So I guess I do live up to the meaning of my name after all? Devon; Poet, heh. Well, since it did turn out so well, I've decided to write more, but for now I'll just post this one here, so that you can all see it. =] I hope you like it!

What wasn't enough

The chilling air is all around,
the midnight darkness overwhelms me,
I replay your voice in my mind..
Over and over,
even though you're not here.
Not your voice, not a sound,
only memories,
but there you'll always be safe.
Safe with me.
Safe in my memories.

With each step
the road seems endless.
But forever I'll walk,
Until I reach my destination.
But forever I'll walk,
Until I reach you.

Your face remains embedded in my thoughts,
your light blue eyes are constantly staring,
burning into my porcelain heart.

The sound of screeching tires
have long since broken the silence.
The luminosity of flashing headlights
have broken into my vision.
Though not enough to pull me from my thoughts,
I just kept walking.
Walking to you.

My burning heart and aching mind,
making me wander further and further,
away from the saftey of the curb.
Without even realizing the dangers,
the dangers approaching from behind.

The sound of screeching tires.
The luminosity of flashing headlights.
The ear piercing sound of an urgent horn.
The warnings had already been given,
But still stuck in my thoughts,
I just kept walking.
Walking to you.

But finally my thoughts were broken,
But then, so was my body.
Lying there, on the icy road.
My blood began to form a puddle.
The screeching had stopped,
The headlights had vanished,
The roaring sound of my attacker had ceased.

My vision blurring,
tears streaming down my cheeks.
The pain would soon be over,
that I already knew.
But will I see your face again,
will I ever be with you?
Or will I ever be able to tell you
how much I truley love you?

My heart's rapid pounding began to slow
My icy blue eyes staring blankly,
blankly at the face that I couldn't avoid.
And there you stood,
hovering over me with your head in your hands.
Standing there in silent mourning.
The last thing I heard was your quiet sobs
between the only words I heard.
the only words that could escape your lips.

"I was always here. Right behind you,
driving on until I finally found you.
But even then, I couldn't protect you.
I'm sorry, my dear.. I'll always love you."

My breathing already strained,
but now my heart had stopped.
The endless pain that I would forever feel
even though I would never again be,
the pain of knowing that I never told you
how I really felt..

But I did not blame you,
not in the slightest.
After all, who would have known
that on this cold winter night,
I would take my feelings out,
out and into the world,
the world so dangerous and deadly.
For I didn't blame you,
after all..
How could I blame the one
who shall forever hold my porcelain heart?

And with your car still running,
you turned to walk away..
but not to the car,
no, not to the car,
but into the road instead.
And there you stopped..
In front of the next passing car.

And there you fell
beside my cold dead body.
We lay together on the icy road,
with our blood forging together.
The last resort had been taken,
And now, we'll finally be together forever.

As our love was not enough..